When
they pulled him up, Milton was not sure if he was standing or floating. His
sense of direction was lost. There was a door, true, and it had been in the
wall before, but now it was clearly on the ceiling. Then it occurred to him
that they had not pulled him up, rather they had pushed him to the ground. A
sharp pain, and then down ceased to be down. He fell toward the ceiling,
crashing into it again. The cycle repeated itself. The Thin Woman traced her
finger along his bare back, and colors exploded all around him. The noise was a
cacophony.
Gold
Tooth had him next. The air vibrated, the ground shuddered, and Milton vomited
the meager gruel they’d given him. Maybe that was a good thing. His body was
willing to let it go this time.
“How’s
the knee?” asked The Shabby Man. The cell was just a cell then, concrete walls,
floor and ceiling. To his back, there was the door they came through when it
was time to hurt him. In front of him was a huge pane of glass, probably inches
thick. The Shabby Man’s voice came in over the speaker, lodged up by the
ceiling, about fifteen feet high. Milton sometimes wondered – during Question
Time, which was the only time he could really think – if the Shabby Man’s voice
sounded tinny and rough as it did on the speaker.
“Fine,
I suppose,” croaked Milton. He hadn’t spoken in… however long it had been since
the last Question Time. This was their twenty-seventh session, so it was
possible that it had been as many days, but judging from the number of times
they’d shorn off his beard, it had to be longer than that. They’d actually
fixed up his knee, extracted the bullet and sewn the wound shut. But they’d
made a Game of it. The Thin Woman and Gold Tooth liked to play Games with him.
“You
can walk?”
“Yes.”
“Good.”
The Shabby Man jotted down a note in the small pad he carried with him. “That’s
very good. I’m glad they were able to help you with that.”
The
Shabby Man sat in a wooden swivel chair. Behind him, the cavernous room in
which he sat stretched on into darkness. He wore a ratty brown suit, with a
million little fibers sticking out of it where the fabric was worn, which was
nearly everywhere. He had longish white hair and a scraggly beard, also white.
And he smiled far too often.
“Where
is June Greene?”
Milton
shook his head. This was always among the questions.
The
Shabby Man shrugged innocently. “Maybe next time.” He turned to another page in
his notebook. “When you visited our dear Ms. Greene in the lower block of
Castlebrook Prison, what did you discuss?”
“I
had nothing to do with the escape.”
“That
was not my question.”
Milton
hung his head. “I’ve told you over and over.”
“Where
is she, Jack?”
Milton
slowly stood. His lungs still burned from when they had drowned him. “Honestly,
I wish I knew.”
“Where
is June Greene, Commander Milton?”
Milton
leaned on the window. The glass was cool. “I don’t know.”
The
Shabby Man nodded. He looked almost sad. “I’ll see you next time, Jack.”
He
walked away. The lights went out, and for some amount of time, Milton continued
to stand there. The cool glass was a comfort. It was something solid. He slowly
let himself slide down. His skin rubbing against the glass made a faint squeak.
He dared not sleep, because in sleep time would move swiftly, and he would be
back with his torturers, playing their Games.
He
wanted the Shabby Man back. He’d tried lying, telling them something somewhat
plausible, but they’d known it was false as soon as it left his lips. That
time, they played particularly rough Games with him.
Milton
couldn’t hold himself up anymore, so he let himself flop down onto the floor,
his arm still against the window and his head pressed down onto his arm. It
wouldn’t be long. Sleep was on its way. Cruel sleep. One time, while he slept,
he woke up to impossibly bright lights. He assumed this was another Game, only
to realize he had dreamt it, and the chamber was still pitch-black.
“I’m
sorry to wake you, please, drink this.”
Milton
jolted at the voice. Dread was all he felt. There was little joy to be had in
wakefulness. The Games were about to begin once again.
“Don’t
be frightened. Try to sit up and drink this.”
It
was a different voice: soft, stately. But it was still dark. Milton strained to
prop himself up. There was a terrible smell in the air, like burned rubber and
cigarettes. “Who’s there?”
“Call
me the Diplomat. Here, hold out your hand where I can see it.”
“How
can you see anything?”
“It’s
what I do.” The Diplomat’s hand had found Milton’s. At first Milton thought
that there was something wrong with the Diplomat’s skin, but then realized that
he was wearing leather gloves. Milton found himself holding a hot mug. “Now
drink this.”
“What
is it?”
“It’s
coffee.”
Milton
carefully brought the mug to his mouth. He sipped. The liquid was the bitterest
thing he had ever tasted, burning as it went down his throat. He coughed,
spraying some of the foul liquid from his mouth.
“I
know it doesn’t taste very good, but you’ll need it. I should be going. It's important that it doesn't know I'm here. Drink
the whole mug, Jack.”
“What
is this stuff?” said Milton. There was no response. Slowly, he began to realize
that the room was not completely dark. Far in the distance, outside of his
cell, there was a faint, orange light. As his eyes adjusted, he found that his
cell was completely empty except for himself and the mug in his hand.
There
was nothing left to do at this point. He took a deep breath, exhaled, and
downed the coffee. Suddenly it was very bright, the orange flood lamp, so far
from his cell, igniting like a new sun, as if it were focused entirely into his
eyes. And then the smell grew stronger – fire and plastic, coffee, oil,
cigarettes. The light was blinding.
And
then it was gone.
And
right there, beyond Milton's window, standing mere inches from the glass, there was a man with no face.
(Copyright Daniel Szolovits 2012)